I had a co-worker the other day write me a beautiful email of how she sees such joy in my heart and if she was not a Christian she would wonder what makes and shapes my heart. I could not believe this email because lately the Lord has been tugging, no yanking at my heart to cling to Him, trust Him, love Him, be joyous in Him. My response to the Lord has been one of no response. I am ignoring my God, like a teenager does to her father.
Before this email my heart was heavy not joyous. My God chose to speak to me through a friend at just the right time. I am amazed friends. I am being watched, God is using me and I am not even aware. My strange, depraved life is a glimpse of who God is.
I could sit here and write what I think I need in my life. What should come next in the Ryker family. How I need this or that. But God is right there telling me what I need and what should come next. That is to rely on His everlasting mercies, cling to His love, and trust that He is the only way.